It’s been so long since I’ve written a post, I’m not even sure if I remember all the steps!! But I have so much to say that we’re gonna give it a go!
I’m not sure exactly when it happened, but Wednesday seems to be the day when I am the most introspective. I think it’s because it is the longest workday officially, and it also tends to be the day when sometimes I have to wait a little extra before going home…
It’s a long story, and I don’t particularly want to go into that right now.
I haven’t been posting much… or writing much in general… even though I agreed to do Camp NaNoWriMo this month.
I don’t know why I make promises I can’t keep around this time of year. It’s invariably the most stressful time of year for me. Not only is there the STAAR test, but there’s the normal Spring Time dating drama, or, rather, the lack-of-dating drama, that seems to get to me when I find myself dateless around this time of year. There’s the normal bill crunch as I find myself spending more to keep myself sane while I try to survive the STAAR test, and not absolutely crash.
And, lately, there’s a new focus on all the ways my Autism comes through. Like, now that I’ve had a couple of years to start to understand what exactly having “Aspergers”(though the term seems to be less acceptable recently) means, I’m seeing more and more ways that it manifests that I didn’t realize were different from how other people live.
Good afternoon Weekly Rewind folks! I’m running a little late this weekend, but I’m here to rewind this week for you. For those of you who wished my week this week would be better, thank you for the sentiment, although I’m not sure if it was better.
It was kind of a toss up, with half the week being frustrating and the other half being relatively nice.
Which is an odd thing to say, given that the “nice” part of my week included starting my monthly…
A few days ago I posted about an incident that had me
dwelling pondering on my autism. The rest of this week could easily have been another example of things that on some level help to remind me that I’m not actually abnormal… well, I am abnormal, but only because I’m not neurotypical. But I’m not abnormal aside from my well defined abnormality.
It’s confusing, I know.
I feel like this week’s DSF Rewind should be some variation of Alice in Wonderland, though, perhaps not the Johnny Depp version.
There are times when something happens that makes me question all sorts of things… usually (especially since I got my official Asperger’s diagnosis) about whether or not that diagnosis was correct. It’s strange to go one’s whole life thinking you were “normal,” but knowing inside of you that you weren’t quite that, but not knowing how to explain it to anyone.
And on snowy days like today, when things are not entirely the way they are supposed to be, it leaves me feeling more than a little introspective.
I’m not sure if that’s an accurate saying. It’s one of those things we say the other way around (“My back is all out of whack!”) regularly, but it feels a little odd saying it the other way…
Eh. I’m going with it. Continue reading “Getting back into whack.”