Electric touch (Original poem fragment)

From your fingertips, a thousand volts of desire spark.
Arcs of passion jump through my being
from nerve to nerve
A tingling path of need coursing through me
Igniting a fire at my core.

All because you touched me.

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Totally Smitten!

Occasionally things are going so well in a part of my life that I’m afraid to share it on here. The situation surrounding the Bartender has been one of those situations. We all know that I’m in a state of flux at the moment (work and home situations are not entirely stable), but somewhere in the middle of this crazy time of my life, I met a guy. Yes, he’s one of my Tinderfellas, but there’s something special about this one.

Well, there’s lots of things special about him! And as such, I’ve been really lenient on what I’ve shared about him on here because I’m a little afraid I’m going to jinx it. Continue reading

Prejudice Run Amok

There seems to be an epidemic of educated men saying the most ridiculously sexist things lately. I’m hardly one to be a proponent of the newest wave of feminism with it’s unbridled male-bashing, but the idiotic statements, in the news and semi-locally, about women in fields heretofore dominated by men have made me think that perhaps that battle isn’t quite done being fought either. With all the focus on Caitlyn Jenner and the trans-movement, I think I forgot that, in America at least, we haven’t made all that much progress after all.

Don’t mistake me, we definitely have opened the doors for women to enter into fields that have been previously shut to them. And the recent victories in the LGBTQ community are wonderful; we’re closer to marriage equality for all, finally. As for the race war, in theory all the media coverage of the racial prejudices of police departments across the country will bring an end to the race debate for once and all (wishful thinking, I know, but I’m trying not to be completely sour). All of these small victories working together should equal a big victory and an end to inequality, especially in a country who’s motto is one of freedom and opportunity for all…

But we are most definitely not there yet. Continue reading

Day 12: Favorite Quote

Sometimes I get some flack from people who’ve known me for a long time because I’m an Ayn Rand fan. If you don’t know anything about her, she spawned the philosophy of Objectivism, one of the outlying tenets of Libertarianism and the Tea Party. These extremists follow her fiscal ideologies about small (or no) government involvement, particularly as it applies to business. With the Tea Party-ers, they somehow miss the mark on her anti-religious views.

These people are not true followers of her beliefs, so the people who look down on me for liking her work because these people also like her work don’t truly understand it.

My love for Ayn Rand is wrapped up in her characters. She writes heroes that are meant to be heroes.

clash_of_the_titans_poster02Unlike the recent bastardization of the Greek and Roman myths (the new Clash of the Titans immediately jumps to mind), she writes characters that are meant to be superhuman. While that new Clash of the Titans is all about relinquishing the very thing that makes Perseus a hero in favor of being just a normal, average guy, Rand’s characters refuse to limit themselves and accept the lowest common denominator. I can’t imagine Howard Roark telling anyone he isn’t a God! John Galt was known as the man who found the Island of Atlantis and the fountain of youth. He was a legend in his own right. They are true heroes in that they have achieved greatness!

I aspire to that level of greatness! I aspire to be more than a mere human, and I hope to instill that idea of perfection, and pride in one’s abilities to my students. Obviously, I have some self-esteem issues, but I’ve been working through them–mostly on here–but that doesn’t mean I don’t aspire to greatness. The whole reason I began this blog was to enhance my writing and to vent a bit about my work woes so that I could be better at my job.

Admittedly, I don’t think that my writing skills have gotten better, not grammatically speaking anyway, but I have developed my own voice. I feel like I have a distinct personality in my writing that may or may not have existed before.

And I write almost every day now, which is a vast improvement to before. Perhaps I may aspire to a Rand-ian level of greatness yet! Continue reading

Passion is sexy.

So it’s a beautifully grey day! Actually, it’s rainy and yucky and just the slightest bit cold, but I’m hopped up on cold and flu medication, wrapped up in a fuzzy green blanket and watching a movie that has reminded me why the creative life is so great!

The movie is Begin Again, and I had missed the opportunity to watch an advanced preview of this film when it came out, and I am saddened that I didn’t get to see it on the big screen! The way Mark Ruffalo and Keira Knightley play off of each other and create characters who create beautiful, heartfelt music in an age when it’s all about the look instead of the song, just made me warm and bubbly on the inside!

Theoretically, it could be a fever and mucus that has caused this warm and fuzzy feeling, but I don’t think it is.

I think what makes me feel so overwhelmed with the feel-goods is the way they stick to their guns; they being the characters. They have a creative vision, and as the vision becomes realized, there is such a wonderful feeling of seeing their hard work become a living product and take on a life of it’s own…

The courage and dedication of that is supremely sexy! (As if Mark Ruffalo wasn’t sexy enough already!)

When someone has a vision, and they have the willpower to stick to it and finish what they start… Well, that is arguably the sexiest thing on the planet. Whether it is the desire to design a building, or start your own company, or start a family, or just be the best at whatever it is you have chosen to do with your life. That passion that drives you is what makes you special. That passion is what draws people to you.

It’s a lesson I’m learning, ever so slowly, but I am learning. Learning and evolving.

I’ve come to grips with the fact that I may not finish my NaNoWriMo story. Not on time anyway. I’ve been working on it as I go, which is counter to the NaNoWriMo process, but I’m happier with the product this way, so I have to decide if it’s the word count, or the end product that I’m going to focus on to make me happy.

I choose the end product.

I’m going to stick to my guns and make my book dream become what I know it can be, and if I reach my word count, then that’s great. I have 10 days to write 35,000 words. I might be able to do it. But I’m not going to give in on the quality.

Passion drives me, and it’s given me a power I didn’t know I had.

I hope everyone can find the same strength I’ve found. Find  your passion, people. Find it and follow your dreams!

And if you need some inspiration, definitely watch Begin Again! (Psst, it’s in Redbox at the moment…)