So I’m out again. Out from work, I mean. I feel helpless, and yet part of me knows exactly what is wrong, but none of me knows how to fix it.
Struggled to get to sleep last night, tripling the anti-anxiety medication that is supposed to prevent that exact problem, and then still woke up in a state of absolute panic. I was going to try to go on in to work in spite of that, and then my arm went numb. The left one. And then, because I started to panic about that, I got shaky. Continue reading Vicious Cycle
Sometimes I get really focused on certain pieces of my life. It’s one of the things I’ve always struggled with, but never understood why it was so difficult for me and not for other people. When I was younger, in my wild and exploratory college days, I tried to explain it to people: it’s like there are 2 of me, the me that handles the mundane, real world, and the me that deals with spiritual stuff. Most of the time, I feel like my spiritual self gets in the way of my real self.
I don’t manage time well. Or things like money. They aren’t real to me. Time can’t exist because we perceive it differently depending on the situation, or on the people with whom we surround ourselves. It can be fleeting, or it can fly, or it can drag on. It’s completely subjective and therefor must not be real. Continue reading Time… What to do with it?
It’s been nearly a week since my last post, and I’ve started, oh… maybe five other posts that I haven’t finished, or didn’t feel like they were quite right and so I abandoned them. I started those others periodically throughout the last couple of weeks, but, as I said, for one reason or another they didn’t get finished. I had plans to work on them last week…
But life happened. Continue reading Whirlwind Days
I wish I could say my dream job was a teaching job, but that’s not entirely true. While I think I have a calling for teaching (actually, the more I look at it, I think my calling is in counseling, not teaching), I would really love to be an archaeologist, or a folklorist. I love studying ancient cultures, and luckily for me, it helps me to teach literature!
It also helps me when I counsel people because I can talk about the myths, legends, stories of older cultures to help teenagers know that some of the issues they are going through aren’t exactly new: Continue reading Day 15: Dream Job
Yesterday I was worried.
Today, I am again gainfully employed.
Tomorrow I will continue my relationship based posts, but for now I’m going to celebrate!
Thanks for hanging in there with me! And have a great Friday!