These last few years I’ve been spending a lot of time figuring out this whole autism thing. I mean, living on the spectrum all my life you’d think I’d have it figured out by now, but it’s been only the last few years that I’ve known about it or had the time to really look into what that means.
A lot of my discoveries and worries end up on here, so feel free to peruse if you’re curious… though be warned: I’m exceedingly verbose!
One of the things that comes up regularly is this idea that being autistic makes it hard to have friends… and that’s not entirely my experience. For me, it’s easy to make friends (or I suppose I should say “acquaintances”) because I am a bit of a mimic. People are always telling me “we get along so great!” But, in reality, without even meaning to, I’ve basically just copied everything they’ve done so they identify me as “their kind of people.”
But what am I supposed to do if I don’t like this person whom I’ve now convinced that we’re identical?
Continue reading “Thursday Thoughts: What if you don’t like someone?”
Good afternoon Rewinders! I seem to have a pattern of good weeks followed by bad weeks. If that’s really true, this coming week should be phenomenal!
The short version: I am so awkward that I managed to show my crazy (as one of my co-workers would say) to the gentleman that took me out last weekend, and now I’m being ghosted.
Or at least I’m 97% certain that’s what has happened. I’ve been kind of fixating on how to fix it, which of course always makes it worse, right?
Continue reading “#DSFWeeklyRewind: Can I get a Do-Over?”
There are times when something happens that makes me question all sorts of things… usually (especially since I got my official Asperger’s diagnosis) about whether or not that diagnosis was correct. It’s strange to go one’s whole life thinking you were “normal,” but knowing inside of you that you weren’t quite that, but not knowing how to explain it to anyone.
And on snowy days like today, when things are not entirely the way they are supposed to be, it leaves me feeling more than a little introspective.
Continue reading “Best Laid Plans…”
Good evening beautiful Rewinders! Normally I don’t write this post until Sunday, but this week you’re lucking out and getting it early! And you’re getting a two-for-one Rewind!
That’s partially because I feel a little guilty about not writing anything on here last week. Mostly, though, it’s because I want to write, but need a little break from my NaNoWriMo project. I’ve done nothing but write in my spare time during the last 48 hours of NaNoWriMo!!
But it was worth it because I won. Continue reading “DSF Weekly Rewind: I won NaNo!!”
And I’m gonna do my best to skip it.
I have to admit, having never been through a hurricane before, I wasn’t worried initially. The settings on my Facebook news feed are set so the things I see first are inspirational or funny. I’ve been too busy working on lesson plans or trying to get caught up on my sleep or doing mindless things (like watching Netflix stuff) so I can sleep to really pay attention to the hullabaloo about the hurricane.
Speaking of watching stuff… if you’ve got nothing better to do (like you’re waiting for the apocalypse in the form of Hurricane Harvey), you might want to check out the movie What happened to Monday.
Continue reading “My First Hurricane…”
Late last night I posted about my epiphany and how I think I’d lost some friends because of that Last Guy… Today, I need to write a very short (for me) follow up about it, because it hurts. Because I’m frustrated, and since there are several people who aren’t speaking to me, I have nowhere else to vent it but on here.
Continue reading “I’m tired of losing…”
I’ve bounced back and forth on this issue a bit. When things fell apart with the last guy, I felt like I had to hurry up and get over it because he had warned that it was most likely going to be temporary, but I had hoped that he could be swayed because of how he seemed to feel about me.
I had promised him that it wouldn’t bother me if it was temporary, and on some level it didn’t. It was the end of an experience, and thus end of story.
On the other hand, he didn’t respect or understand or even care about how I felt about the situation. He couldn’t see it from my point of view and let me know rather quickly that my point of view was completely irrelevant to his life, or at the least to his decision making process. Because that has been a regular theme in my relationships with men, it became something I fixated on, and thus what could have been a relatively quick ending was dragged out for me emotionally.
We won’t even get into the physical loss that was attached to the whole mess…
When a friend of mine posted something on Facebook that felt a little too close to home, it made me realize a few things:
Continue reading “Healing Takes Time”